Today I went for my first ultrasound after the reduction. I was so nervous. I am also supposed to go next week but I couldn't wait any longer to see if my little baby boy was ok. I got called back and had my mom by my side. The ultrasound doctor didn't know I had the procedure and it's always hard to let people know. You always get this feeling that you will be judged and still feel this guilt. But I explained to her that one of them they were worried about and she was very nice about it. 

She had me get on the table and squeezed the cold jelly on my stomach and started to move the wand around. She seemed to be quiet for so long. What was seconds felt like a lifetime. I glanced over at my mom in fear and finally back at the screen and say him move around. At the same time my mom and I both let out a huge sigh of relief. She took measurements and measured the heartbeat and all looked great! Finally I could relax a little but there is also a huge part of me that worries for him but I Know he will be ok and the doctor reassured me that me and the baby are doing great.

I have my ultrasound appointment with my reduction doctor next week. I wanted to see her too because I really trusted her and after the appointment i feel like I will be able to rest a little easier. I know in my heart it will all be ok.