Back To Square One

I was worried this day would come. Our nanny that took so long to find and Trust is leaving us. I am so devastated. The process of finding her was torcher! I finally felt comfortable knowing indy was in good hands and I feel like finding that again is going to be impossible. My mom wants me to go see a daycare near my house but the idea of that makes me want to cry. I picture a prison and him slipping through the cracks and it breaks my heart. A friend said her daughter loved it. I’m going to give it a chance and at least go see it. The price is half of what I pay now and the good thing is that he will be around other kids everyday. But there is also such guilt I feel on my part. I look at his happy sweet face and fear that he won’t get the attention if there are so many kids. The thought keeps me up all night. I only want the best for him and I want him to grow up knowing that I did everything to give him the world.